This week has been....interesting, busy, exhausting, overwhelming, emotional, tiring, long, endless, and exciting.
I don't do well with change. We moved this week. Drew is transferring schools. We are going to start a new ward. We have new neighbors. Change is hard....exciting, but hard.
I have become someone I am not happy with this week. I suppose it has to do with the pregnancy hormones, moving, cleaning, endless to do lists, change, a traveling husband, and sick kids. My house is disorganized. I am dealing with serious lack of sleep. My work is getting turned in late. Meals around here are not what they should be. My tolerance and level of patience is far below where it should be. I am not a yeller and I am ashamed and so sad to say that I have yelled a couple times this week. *sigh* I hate yelling and being impatient. I regret it the instant it happens. Argh....
All of this does not make a happy mom and therefore I have less than happy boys.
Time for a fresh start. Sleep or no sleep.....clean or no clean.....I am going to do better. Tomorrow is a new day. I am going to work a little harder. I have read a couple blog posts from friends/family this week that have given me the extra nudge I needed to push forward and make the extra effort.
Love has a Price
"The best decisions you will make as a parent will be the ones that are the hardest to carry out....'the ones that have a price'.........Love has a price"
Accentuate the Positive
"I come to you tonight with a plea that we stop seeking out the storms and enjoy more fully the sunlight. I am suggesting that as we go through life we try to 'accentuate the positive.' I am asking that we look a little deeper for the good, that we still our voices of insult and sarcasm, that we more generously compliment virtue and effort. Now I am not asking that all criticism be silenced. Growth comes of correction. Strength comes of repentance. Wise is the man or woman who can acknowledge mistakes pointed out by others and change his or her course. "What I am suggesting is that you turn from the negativism that so permeates our modern society and look for the remarkable good among those with whom you associate, that we speak of one another's virtues more than we speak of one another's faults, that optimism replace pessimism, that our faith exceed our fears. When I was a young man and was prone to speak critically, my wise father would say: 'Cynics do not contribute. Skeptics do not create. Doubters do not achieve.' " – Gordon B Hinckley
The Best is Yet to Be
"Faith is of the future. Faith builds on teh psat but never longs to stay there. Faith entrusts that God has great things in store for each of us and that Christ truly is the 'high priest of good things to come' (Hebrews 9:11). Keep your eyes on your dreams, however distant and far away. Live to see the miracles of repentance and forgiveness, of trust and divine love that will transform your life today, tomorrow, and forever." -Elder Jeffrey R. Holland
Tomorrow will be a day of change...good change...a change in me!
I am so glad tomorrow is Friday and I will have my husband home and finally be able to get a little sleep this weekend!
8 comments:
You know I was actually just telling someone this week how you are one of the best moms I have ever met. I think this post proves my statement to be very, very true. Those boys and that little girls are very blessed kids.
girl* unless there is a twin hiding somewhere...lol
Don't you hate those kind of weeks when you know you are being snippy but just can't seem to do anything about it? I hate them and always feel guilty. Here's to change and pulling through it unscathed! You can do it!
I must admit I let out a huge sigh after reading that post. I can almost feel your exhaustion through it. Meg, your friend is right. You are an amazing mother. And love does have a price. Sometimes we pay it, and sometimes our children pay it. Living and learning. Love you Meg.
Hang in there girl!! My motto..... "This too shall pass" I live by that because crap happens and you can't do anything about it!! You will have an organized home in no time and life will be somewhat normal (well until you have a new baby.... and that's a new kind of change!!) 3 kids is exciting!!! Thanks for your motivation of being a better mom!!
oh you are such a good good mommy and everyone has bad weeks, and i think you have VERY good reason go have one of those weeks...moving, pregnant, no hubby around...you're amazing.
Oh I wish I could solve all of my kids dilemma's, be there to hold you up and help you out. We all must go through the 'hard' times... don't be hard on yourself. You ARE a good mom, a very pregnant, tired mom! I pray for you to have time to rest, to sleep ~ all night would be good! We love you - and will see you soon! (Do NOT worry about what your house looks like cuz I am coming!) Advice from Dory ~ just keep swimming, swimming, swimming...
You're doing great as it is! Just remember to try to get at least 5 or 6 hours of uninterrupted sleep every night to keep from going crazy. And relax everywhere you can (paper plates, dollar menu dinners, etc.).
You'll make it through! I can only imagine. I'm dreading our next move--which will happen with a brand-new baby and likely without Josh to help, and be across country. Heaven help all of us mothers!
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